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mizarchivist) wrote2019-04-25 07:39 am
mizarchivist) wrote2019-04-25 07:39 am
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Day 4 of ? at new job
I've started temping in an archive setting- my first proper gig I've landed that depends on me being an archivist. The first NEW archive gig I've had since I was on the eve of my 25th birthday. Back then, I didn't have enough experience to fall back on to know what to do next, how to do anything beyond flail very poorly and be stuck a lot of the time. Now? It's soothing, easy. I know how to look for resources for a reference question. I can process for hours, most of the day and the greatest impediment to continuing is that my legs/hips are tired from standing. I have a lot of projects I'd like to do, but not sure how much leeway I'll have to do so. It IS only the dawn of my 4th day there, after all.
What is startling is how similar this place is to what I left. What is startling is it feels like where they are now is not even quite where I started in the old place 19 years ago. The person who runs the collection reminds me SO much of my dearly departed boss, but somehow moreso even. Given different person /background, and I'm almost 20 years older to see the nuance.
It is so so so so so soooo good to be able to use my skills in a new place. I am pretty much stress-free, calm, and energized. We'll see what happens next. I do know that if I'm able to apply even 20% of my capacity as a trained information professional, I will have done good things. I can now say 100% to the weasels who tell me I'd never have made it outside that one small pond, that they are quite wrong. I've got skills. I'm not a failure. I mostly knew that, but for real the imposter syndrome beast has shrunk like the fear demon in Buffy season 4 down to a garden gnome size.
I guess being 44 is alright (also happy birthday to me +1)
What is startling is how similar this place is to what I left. What is startling is it feels like where they are now is not even quite where I started in the old place 19 years ago. The person who runs the collection reminds me SO much of my dearly departed boss, but somehow moreso even. Given different person /background, and I'm almost 20 years older to see the nuance.
It is so so so so so soooo good to be able to use my skills in a new place. I am pretty much stress-free, calm, and energized. We'll see what happens next. I do know that if I'm able to apply even 20% of my capacity as a trained information professional, I will have done good things. I can now say 100% to the weasels who tell me I'd never have made it outside that one small pond, that they are quite wrong. I've got skills. I'm not a failure. I mostly knew that, but for real the imposter syndrome beast has shrunk like the fear demon in Buffy season 4 down to a garden gnome size.
I guess being 44 is alright (also happy birthday to me +1)
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YAY!!
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Go you!
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Oh, oh, oh, that is so made of awesome amazing awesomeness. It is the best thing, and it is so good to hear you say all of this. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
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Thank you for being my fierce ally and partner in shenanigans from day 1.
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I . can . do . the . thing !!