Funnily enough

[mizarchivist]

• The therapist encouraged me to tell New Insurance that I'm in crisis and cannot reasonably give up my therapist who's out of network right now. OK, worth a shot. (oh yeah, meant to do that)


• She also made me talk to the family at the same time with my outside voice to explain the degree of Not OK I am right now. Which I did and the world didn't end.


• We are going to use a feelings board (like in pre-school) to help everyone know where others are in any given day. Asciikitty's going to come up with the board part with feels. I made (clay) magnets for everyone (of course).


• Tomorrow I'll likely see about upping my meds to help me deal.


• I have a hard time admitting that what I'm going through is a really big deal and extreme and super hard- I'm not literally on fire or a half a million other horrid things, so I should just .... (and here I trail off). But every time I see my therapist, who is a professional helper person and everything and her job is to be knowledgeable on such things, she points out this is a big deal, hard, and full of pretty intense, exhausting, and anxious-making things. So, it might go better to stop expecting myself to have the capacity of a not-stressed person... Like, don't be this guy:

TL:DR... working on it.