sneak-sneak-sneak- POUNCE: Look, homesickness.

[mizarchivist]

I suddenly miss my OU friends. A lot. A local friend known from back in those days, a fellow UUer ethanfield just wrote to tell me he'd done a travellogue for his summer road trip via LJ, so in looking I saw he visited some mutal friends at Ohio U. Seeing pictures of people I've not seen in going on 10 years hits me like a knife in the heart. Even if by some miracle I could see even a large fraction of the folks I used to see every day--- just don't know if it'd be what I need. What it comes down to is that I want to be able to revisit my life 10 years ago. (we do the usual hand wave at the logistics of messing with the order of time and creating new paths and all and all and all.)

I'll be dreaming of them tonight, I am sure. Here's to hoping they are all well.

Comments

[thanos73.livejournal.com]

if only we could revisit our lives from so long ago. Tell ourselves, to keep in touch with the ties we have then, do the things we should have done. Alas it is not so, but hey, there is always the here and now. There is always the future to be made, glorious or hideous, only we can decide that by our actions today. (either that or some god old irish physcology... a shot, a beer, a good fight and a hard fuck)

[beowabbit]

Yeah, I have that pretty intensely sometimes. Occasionally I wish I could go back and change things, but usually I just wish I could go back. (In some ways, though, the last 2-3 years feel like I have; my social life feels rich and full in the way it did in college.)

[catness.livejournal.com]

Eh. I have that kind of nostalgia, every now and then. I realized it's the same thing - wishing to be back in that life again, with the future ahead of me. The problem is, if I'm honest about it, I didn't really enjoy that/then/there all that much, and I didn't have the insight to enjoy what was available, because I was striving for now.

I'm not totally psyched with now, but I've worked to get here, and the time and effort wasn't entirely misspent.

I know too much now

[mizarchivist]

I decided what I really want more than anything is to have been able to bottle up those moments to save for later. I don't *really* want to go back. I'd look at my Ex and run screaming into the night. I'd visit my grandmother and do nothing but cry knowing she'd be gone soon. I'd look at my own actions and need to slap myself upside the head for my stupidity. Hell, I don't have to be in Athens to feel a need to berate myself. I have been a dumbass right here in this state countless times :)

[supercheesegirl.livejournal.com]

I go through that sometimes, too. It's not just missing the people, although I do that too; it's missing the whole lifestyle, who I was then myself and how I interacted with those people. I'm possibly going to my five-year reunion next week, which promises to be weird.

[drwex]

Sympathies. I've been hanging out with several grad students lately and getting highly nostalgic for the really good bits of grad student living. So much simpler.