Oh, Hi, Social Media. I'm still here and stuff

[mizarchivist]

I think I'm out of practice writing here. I keep reading - or at least skimming- my friends, but one day is much like another for me right now. A standard day--
I get up earlier than I like because my son is part bird and rises with the sun
Get the kid up and ready for his day 
Go to work: so. much. to. do
Rush home
Play with the kid, feed him dinner, put him to bed
Eat while I feed him, or after
Do ... something? for an hour or two before I go to bed

Generally speaking, this makes for feeling intensely boring. I have about 30-40 minutes of conversation to offer up on general topics, probably double that if we're adding in updates on what Crime Fighter's doing, and then... yeah. We're done with anything remotely interesting.   It's temporary, but it's the person I hoped never to be. I just didn't realize when I vowed not to Be That Guy, is That Guy is just doing the best s/he can with so very much limited resources. 

In sort of similar, somewhat dejected news, I feel like I don't have the energy to get my motorcycle out this season. I realize it JUST got nice, and I may well decide it must be brought out. But with so very little free time, I feel like (pedal) bike riding, art, and general social time wins out over (motor)bike and bike maintenance. The new neighborhood also means it's easier most of the time to take a bus rather than jump through the hoops of motoring. If I were more social, headed to further locations, didn't have 1 if not 2 cars at my disposal when going out to non-bus friendly places... yeah. Cost benefit just doesn't seem to weigh out right now.
I just know that being out on the bike makes me so very happy.  This must be another situation where being an adult is "tomplitated" to quote asciikitty. Dammit, I will some day. I vowed back in the day, I'd not give up riding just because I was a mom. 

Anyway. Hi. I'm here. I should write about going to NYC with the kid, but it's time to go home- so maybe next time.

Comments

[tamidon.livejournal.com]

"I just didn't realize when I vowed not to Be That Guy, is That Guy is just doing the best s/he can with so very much limited resources."

this is a hard one to deal with and I'm glad you are realising it's temporary and not a reflection of who you are as a being, just who you have to be right now

[mizarchivist]

Thanks

[weegoddess.livejournal.com]

This. FWIW, I hear you. None of us wanted to feel like we've become boring. And yet, because we're doing *so much*, we feel exactly that way.

It's a real contradiction, no?

[mizarchivist]

So much, but sort of on a micro level. And to state the ridiculously obvious: it turns out that babies require 3/4 of their assigned adults' energy.

Welcome to the tribe

[drwex]

There's a reason I use the 'primary relationship' analogy for children.

*hugs*

[mizarchivist]

Word. Yo.

[hammercock.livejournal.com]

I just didn't realize when I vowed not to Be That Guy, is That Guy is just doing the best s/he can with so very much limited resources.

Right there with ya.

[ceo]

Maturation happens. It gets easier.

And, you might miss a season of riding, but that doesn't mean you're giving it up. When Benjamin was an infant, I ended up missing two ski seasons, and I'm now skiing more than I did before he was born.

[mizarchivist]

::sigh of relief::--
That makes a big difference to hear. Thank you.
I feared that if I became That Guy to this degree, that I'd also be The Guy who decides that mothers don't motorcycle because it's too dangerous. As if anything is actually safe.

ya know?