Scratching and clawing my way to what feels "normal."

[mizarchivist]

... which of course is a load of crap. What is "normal?"
But you know what I mean, or will soon.

I keep finding little-ish things that I am able to reclaim, things I used to do that I did before a kid that better fits my internal landscape of who I think I am.

• I've started wearing jewelry again. Not the fancy, intricate, hand-made (by me) beaded necklaces, but earrings and my more sturdy necklaces. The Kid may want to touch them, but he isn't just yanking at the shiny things. Also, he can say "Shiny," which is awesome.


• I'm contemplating makeup. Not necessary, sure, but helps me feel more deliberate in my stylistic choices


• ART. Guys? ART!! Clay. CLAY. CLAY! I'm sure the repetition, caps and bold would be enough for even the most unobservant that perhaps I buried the lede here. Specifically, I've started to experiment with a new jewelry notion: a toggle necklace/bracelet that uses jersey/t-shirt material as the connectors. I'm using Makume-gane style (check out this tutorial I just found. OMG, why am I not at home RIGHT NOW DOING THIS!!!). I also need to revisit how I finish the stuff.


• Gym. Soon. As the weather gets less clement, I have plans to find a gym. Mornings are more flexible than they were once upon a time, so hopefully I can negotiate something a few days a week and do that proper cardio I've been skipping almost entirely for 2+ years.


• Skating: I've only gone the one time. I want to do more though.


• Hair cut. I really like the current cut. It feels very Me.


• I must be doing well when I forget N times in a day I have therapy. Which is in 45 min. OK- I go. Bye!

Comments

[42itous.livejournal.com]

YAYAYYY!! Art alone is a huge step toward regaining your self-image, and the rest of the list is a heck of a lot of icing on that Makume-gane layer-cake. :D

[mizarchivist]

I LOVE CAKE!!!