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mizarchivistI haven't had a lot of time to really be able to absorb the things we talked about this week.
Big take aways, though...
Somely is better than nonely. And I need to really not down-play those things, because it's success. Somewhere I got a sense of binary thinking and I'm really ok with letting go the death grip on the things that SEEMED so important, but were just making everything harder. At any rate, I had about 3-7 instances of practicing the some better than none option lately.
I've sat after therapy lately and just been wrecked, and hoped nobody needed me to be on the ball for work, because it wasn't going to happen. So, today's had a small emotional storm of just feeling SAD and mourning the loss of an idea that maybe never existed in the first place. I have a fair bit of luxury in that I'm by myself and listening to my electro-chill station so I didn't have to pretend to be OK. I could just sit with the feelings and cry a bit and breathe and let it go. It was.... nice? necessary, that's for sure.
The realization from last week about rushing through discomfort is serving me well.
And I guess that's what I have today. <3 ya'll.
Big take aways, though...
Somely is better than nonely. And I need to really not down-play those things, because it's success. Somewhere I got a sense of binary thinking and I'm really ok with letting go the death grip on the things that SEEMED so important, but were just making everything harder. At any rate, I had about 3-7 instances of practicing the some better than none option lately.
I've sat after therapy lately and just been wrecked, and hoped nobody needed me to be on the ball for work, because it wasn't going to happen. So, today's had a small emotional storm of just feeling SAD and mourning the loss of an idea that maybe never existed in the first place. I have a fair bit of luxury in that I'm by myself and listening to my electro-chill station so I didn't have to pretend to be OK. I could just sit with the feelings and cry a bit and breathe and let it go. It was.... nice? necessary, that's for sure.
The realization from last week about rushing through discomfort is serving me well.
And I guess that's what I have today. <3 ya'll.
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