Stupid dreams and such

[mizarchivist]

I dreamed that I was responsible for getting a Saugus Skate party together,  but it was up against some other activities that I was much more interested in- apparently the skate party was set up and forgotten? 

Yet it was also a birthday party of a sort for me. This time I didn't bother to get a cake, didn't prep music, order pizza, get a box for the donations.... I was fending off very unpleasant advances from the owner of the rink- I threatened him with quiet_elegance if he didn't back off. Then I found out he was the owner, and somehow this meant that I should have been more politic. I don't think this would have been true in reality.
The DJ was reluctant/impossible about song requests. We were often skating with no music, and when I asked for songs, he dragged his feet. I explained other DJs had let me pick out all the songs before. When I went to look at his monitor, I discovered he was just looking at album covers and that in this mode, picking a song was just about impossible. I was convinced he was incompetant.
Then quiet_elegance asked me why I was being such a bitch, not knowing about most of what had just happened, and I had to go on the defensive and explain it all- 

Jump ahead to it's time to leave and I've not set up a mechanism for folks to help defray the cost of the rental (it's about 300+ bucks) - I have about 130 dollars in hand and about 80 people still on the floor, just staring at me acting like I'm mistreating them asking for money. Just 5 dollars! If they'd donated 5, I'd have been fine! Better than fine. 
Thank god I got to wake up.

I find this a strange way to anticipate today's dental visit (fixing a cracked filling), but there you go. I think it can mostly be chalked up to a sudden embarrassment of riches with social events in the next few weekends. Possibly residual mom worry? The Benadryl I took before going to sleep? Oy. I can do without in any event.

Comments

[lifecollage.livejournal.com]

I can see the Review Board for this dream:

"Let's see...responsibility without credit? Check.
Confusion and conflict? Check.
Fears of inappropriate sexual contact? Check.
Personal meaning invested in an event gone awry? Check.
Misunderstandings begetting more conflict? Check.
Financial mismanagement? Check.
Total lack of control over the outcome? Check."

"Have we hit all the buttons?"

"Well, we could add a few more, but the CGI budget's blown for the month. It'd look like a cheap Tarantino knockoff and she'd never believe it."

"Nah, then skip it. We'll schedule total annihilation and things with too many legs for October. Run it!"

[mizarchivist]

*giggle*
Happily the filling replacement took less than 2 songs to get done. Yay!

[sparkymonster.livejournal.com]

Good god woman. That is fucking insane.

[mizarchivist]

No kiddin'. Dental visit was not remotely traumatic, so whew.

[drwex]

Wow. I also had a night full of anxiety dreams. Mine were mostly of the "I suck and not at all in a good way" variety.

[mizarchivist]

Harsh :( I hope you're feeling better now

[drwex]

Only very vaguely. Although I don't remember the details of the dreams, the general theme stayed with me and my inner "I SUCK" voice was loud and persistent for several hours after I woke up.