Just believe, just breathe

[mizarchivist]

Telepopmusik .... you speak to the essence that is me.

I'm dealing with an emotional hangover today. Therapy yesterday was hard. I just feel stuck and frustrated much of the time. I don't want to rehash it all, so just trust that it's like that without specific examples. The therapist challenged the root of some distress, though, which is that I feel like if I admit that something's a problem for me, then I have to immediately DO something to rectify that. She (rightly) points out... nope. I don't. I don't have to swing into action the second I admit there's a problem. It's OK to just admit that something is hard, or not ideal, or flawed, or frustrating. Huh. Well, like all things like this assumption, once you say it out loud like that it makes sense, but ridiculously hard and insidious while sitting there in your head, demanding that it's right and it knows best.

I was glad to see unalmas last night. They are always a delight.

Comments

[lifecollage]

That is a wonderfully apt metaphor. Everything takes time to heal, whether body-meat or brane-meats. I expected to take a couple of months to chill out and then swing back into full-time work. As M has told me multiple times, "you only just started healing from your burn-out by spring - you needed that full year."

One last comparison, which I use all the time. In Pegasus In Space (a story world with psi powers), Anne McCaffrey has her characters show that while physical work in space is less taxing, psi/mental work in space requires the exact same amount of energy as in full-G. Mental (and emotional) work is Work, and you can run out of energy for it just like physical activity. Gotta take time to recharge and heal when you're spent.

<3

[mizarchivist]

Now to convince the brane-meat to BELIEVE this. Still again more thank you for... everything.