Aug. 2nd, 2010 11:45 am
The nature of grief
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mizarchivistSince Saturday morning, almost all my energy and thoughts have been focused on the reality that one of our tribe- ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
ariesd - was taken so suddenly that morning. I am usually not fond of euphemisms, but in moments like this, I have a hard time with hard words. He's gone and there's an Aries shaped hole in the world, now.
Much of that time has been spent in shock and denial, but yesterday the realness settled in when helpingtaura_g at the house, meeting Aries's family (for the first time).
Despite my hyper-focus on all this sadness, I'm having a hard time writing here. Grief is weird and extremely painful. It's hard not to feel very neurotic, too. But I have to say something.
I'm grateful that I have an assistant who can help me get on with the business of mundane library/reference. I'm actually thankful to be here at work at the moment. I have enough outside demands for things/ activities I can stumble through and just keep moving until I can acclimate. Also another time I am glad I'm alone in this office so I don't have to fake being more with it than I am.
Love to you, taura. See you soon.
ariesd - was taken so suddenly that morning. I am usually not fond of euphemisms, but in moments like this, I have a hard time with hard words. He's gone and there's an Aries shaped hole in the world, now. Much of that time has been spent in shock and denial, but yesterday the realness settled in when helping
taura_g at the house, meeting Aries's family (for the first time). Despite my hyper-focus on all this sadness, I'm having a hard time writing here. Grief is weird and extremely painful. It's hard not to feel very neurotic, too. But I have to say something.
I'm grateful that I have an assistant who can help me get on with the business of mundane library/reference. I'm actually thankful to be here at work at the moment. I have enough outside demands for things/ activities I can stumble through and just keep moving until I can acclimate. Also another time I am glad I'm alone in this office so I don't have to fake being more with it than I am.
Love to you, taura. See you soon.
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